The reason's why I'm happy that Royal Idol was cancelled .

UGH ; I can't believe it , but Royal Idol is CANCELED .

UGHHHH ! I want to hit something . But I know that's not right . I was so prepared , I got everything ready , I went & got an outfit (which was super cute by the way) I got my beat boxer , & guitar player , and back up singer . I WAS SO READY MANN ! But ohh well . I ended up getting a sore throat , I couldn't find me a nice black fedora (I do like the one on my head at the moment though), then I lost my background singer , I didn't have the time to go and tell people about the show . So it's all good . It just sucks that they cancelled it within days of the show . UGH ! But the great news is , is that They postponed Idol , actually & moved it to the beginning of next year , but instead of all of us trying out again , we get a free ticket in , so we don't have to audition , even though we're already in the show . But other than that today (besides the fact that it was supposed to be royal idol RIGHT NOW !) was really great (: For SO many reasons that I am not obligated to discuss on here (; BUT , okay , so I got to wear my shorts from my royal idol out fit , it was black pinstripe really short shorts , and then I wore a purple lace tank & my big "bopper" triangle scarf thing that's purple & black . OHHHYEAHH ; I was freshh today . it was weird though , like I felt so violated today , & then like I caught random guys staring ; And like KUYA Raymart was acting weird , calling me "sexy" and shit . "hey sexy" - all I thought was: I have a name you know ?! & YOU KNOW IT TOO ! UGHH ; I did NOT like the attention: Anywhoo . Other that that , me & Gerry hung out for a little bit after school . HAHAHAH ... I think I'm his wallpaper on his phone or something . I don't know . But yeahh (: Today was GREAT .

"Aye Mann ! Ayee Mannnnn !"

The 3 Mu-Skeeters ;

Today 052809 ; is the day that my two best friends become my two lover birds . For one (let's call this person #1 even though we already know who I am talking about), this is one of many relationships , but something that could mean/be more . For the other (#2), this is their first relationship , and I am glad that it's with someone I care about as much as the other & trust with my life . I haven't seen #2 this happy ; I mean yeah I've seen her happy before , more like ALL THE TIME ! But I haven't seen her this happy & giddy (:Hahah ; although she needs to tone the wardrobe down a little , but it's all good , she's getting there (; And #1 I haven't seen him that happy in a while ! GOD ! I am SO happy for them , like I've never been as happy as I am now for anyone in their relationships . hahah , that sounds mean , but WOW ; We were the 3 mu-skeeters (; but now that's kinda changed a little . We still are but its different now (; Mann , I remember the first time I brought #2 to hangout with me & #1 , I was talking to #2 in sixth period , and I was like ," HOY ! come hangout with me & (#1) after school ! Let's go to McDonalds or something , My treat (;" then we went to McDo (so filipino), and they got to know each other allot more . Hahah ; it was fun Me & Haila found weed under the table , haha so we left ; lmao ! But yeahh ; basically this blog was supposed to be about how I am going to eventually get so annoyed because I'm going to be a third wheel & they're gunna be all loveydovey ; & all this & that . And all the stuff I dislike , I know there's gunna be a point where I am going to be pushed to the edge . I wonder what would happen then ... ?

P.S: I don't like you .

For those deep enough:
I don't like how you say things you don't mean
I don't like how you act different around certain people .
I don't like how you deny things then agree with them
I don't like how you say you do these things but you don't
I don't like how you talk about how other people don't have shit
I don't like how you look down on people when they look up to you (amazingly)
I don't like how you talk about people & then act like you're bestiess
I don't like how you act like you know everything
I don't like how you think you're ALWAYS right
I don't like how you play with guys' emotions & lead them on
I don't like how you ALWAYS try to take control of everything
I don't like how you make commitments you can't even attend to
I don't like how you try to be popular
I don't like how you treat others
I don't like how you think you're perfect
I don't like how you try to make people perfect
I don't like how you think everything will go your way
I don't like how you always make untrue excuses
I don't like how you think you're so mature
I don't like how you have attitude
I don't like how you mean mug
I don't like how you try to make people feel bad for you
I don't like how you think you're pure
I don't like how you talk shit about everyone
I especially don't like how you even talk about your best friends .

For those shallow enough:
I don't like how you're a hypocrite
I don't like how you're so fake
I don't like how you're annoying
I don't like how you're a wannabe
I don't like how you're so full of it


BASICALLY: I don't like you . I hope you get the message , if not let me help you brand the gotdamnn message on your forehead like a messed up tattoo given by a drunkard fresh out of the pub .

I really don't like you . You have no clue , I don't hate you though . I've never ever loathed anyone more than you . I don't even know why , but I do . Well actually scratch that , I do know . Ever since I've gone to KM , it's been rumor after rumor ,and some of them weren't even at KM , but most of it always goes back to you for some reason , you don't totally talk shit like"that bitch ima fuck her up" you say it in a more conservative way . But it's still talking shit my dear . Because of you people think of me as any derogatory term possible . SHOOT , people even think I lost my V-card , but hunny , I still got that in my secret compartment of super secret weapons . Yes , I know , you're prolly asking ,"Why the H is she telling the whole world this ?" well , FYI , I have nothing to hide . If i don't like you , & you want to know , I will tell you straight up , but for some reason you never come straight to me , & you're always scared to come up to me . But unlike you .. I'm actually real with people , I don't go behind their backs saying all this all that . And I'm not afraid to settle something & you know what ? Being Christian / Catholic / Evangelistic / Presbyterian: does NOT make it okay to do what ever you do to me & to everyone else , you can't always be expecting God to come & save your ass from everything . Shitt , being any of that doesn't make you pure either . if You wanna be pure go to a Nunnery . But honestly & seriously this is fucking highschool . Really ? We're pretty much close to adulthood , do you wanna live talking shit & acting the way you act the rest of your life ? I could totally make your life HELL if I wanted to , but you know what ? I chose not to . It's the mature thing to do , its what my conscience tells me , its what my gut says is right , it's what I believe is right . & no one deserves what ever evil conniving plot I have in mind . Really now . HOW'S THAT FOR MORALS !? But really just keep your distance stop the shit talking cause this is just bringing back Middle school drama . So , stay out of my life .
Hugs&kisses (;

P.S: I love you .

Well , there have been so many things going on the past few weeks , & I wanna take the time to acknowledge the people that have been there for me throughout it all . These are really the people that I can trust with my life . (Not in any order ; I never liked favoritism .)

1). This girl right here is amazing . She is prolly one of the only girls I can trust at KM I met her this year , and usually when I meet someone I don't get super close to them till the next year , but I feel like I've known her forever , it's kinda WEIRD (like her) . She's helllllluhhh F.O.B ; First time I met this girl , I thought she was Japanese , & she always wore this domo sweat shirt I wanted to jack & jeans & her white little shoes . haha then I heard the words .."Banana Ketchup" and then I said -"YOU'RE FILIPINO ?!" hahah . Now she wears import model clothing & those heels (I will jack eventually) ; she has nappy hair , but not as nappy as someone we know & cannot speak off (: she's a pale Asian , but not as pale as someone we know & cannot speak off (: She's full filipinay (secretly half black); she's pretty . One day I will slap her face & rub my hand on my face so the prettiness will rub off on me . hahah . She's taller than me -__- NOW let's talk about our adventures .. We usually email each other / talk on skype when we're right next to each other , we always find something to do , never ever a dull moment . Ohhh we play chubby bunny with boba tea .! And we hide from people under clothes in the aisles ! Hahah . This girl is someone I can totally trust , she's not 2 faced , she's honest and she doesn't talk shit . & she doesn't stab people behind their backs , I cannot , CANNOT go a day without talking to her . That's like a sin . And she's just an amazing person over all .

2). This guy right here , Is probably one of the only guys I can trust at KM . I met him this year too . at the beginning of the year when I first came to KM . I guess we both found the other one "attractive" but then realized ... WE WERE LONG LOST COUSINS ! Well , not long lost , just cousins . Then we started hanging out & realizing how much we have in common . Which was ALOT . haha I mean FINALLY someone who knew about Lotus Surf Shop , and as much stuff about Guam as well as I do . I got lots of love for this guy , he's always there for me when I needed someone . Hahah ; I feel bad cause sometimes I don't listen to him , and he is my kuya , & then sometimes I pull his "weakness" on him , and then he starts THREATENING ME ! sikee . hahah but you know . He knows almost everything about me , we tell each other everything , help each other out . Moral support shitts , etc . And ohh yeahh ; Eventually Ima go back home to Guam with him & we're just gunna live down there , no troubles / worries ! I miss home allot . Lots Of Love Kuya ! hahah Ohyeahh I just remembered .. I owe him some Oakley's . haha !(:

3). Now I met this girl this year too .! but It feels like we were separated at birth . Some people say we look alike , some people say we act alike . But only me & her know how "twin-like" we are . She's my atehh & twin (: I love this girl TO DEATH ; Like no lie . hahah . The same as number 1 up ther ^^ , but anywhooo . I met her this year , It was at Starbucks when my ina anak was still in nanay's tummy ; My now ex boypriendd just left , and I was chilling with Kuya Zach & then John , Mark , & her came . When I first saw her I was SUPER SELOSA ! You have no idea . I wanted to slap her , cause she was pretty . Like with number 1). up there ! I wanted to slap her & rub my hand on my face , make sure the prettiness rubbed off on ME . hahah . So then a while passed , she came to Filipino club a couple times . I was some what intimidated by her , because it seems like she didn't like me , so I left her alone , then one day at Filipino practice we chilled , kuya john & everyone else left for judo , & it was just me & her , & we chilled & got closer ! And then she kept coming & we started talking & finding out we had so much in common , then she came for a couple WASL days , and we got even closer naman . And we started finding out that me & her had so much in common it was crazy , we both went through same hardships , same drama , same this same that . Haha then we started calling each other twin ! I became Ninang of baby ina anak . And we became more than atehh & ading & twins (omg I thought I was taller than her but we're like almost the same height , theres just a cm difference ! ahahhahhah ). I tell her almost everything she tells me almost eberything . haha . we have the CRAZIEST adventuress , not as crazy as number 1 up there tho , hahah . we're never , ever bored . Like ever . haha . I swear her & number 1 & me are gunna live together eventually . Hahah everyday I will sit on her & she will smash her pretty face on a bench (: sikeee ! ijokeijoke . But anywho , I trust her with my life , she really is one of the few people I can trust . She's not fake , she's always real with me . And we're always there for each other . Lots of love for this girl , you know I'm always there for you atehh twin .! LoveYouLots (:

4). Now unlike the first 3 on here , this girl I've known for about 5 years now , ever since 061004 . Since the day I moved into my current house . She's a year younger , but still , gotta love her . She's an adorable Asian . Every time I see her , she reminds me of Chinese food ! Me & her used to be HELLLLUH close , we still are , but highschool & middle school has been allowing us to drift a little , I can't wait till she goes to KM next year though , it's gunna be like old times , Ateh & Ading , Wiffeys , Brestpreinds , Cousins . She only lives like what ? 7 houses down from me , haha we used to always chill , I miss those days (: hahah during the summer we used to walk around Covington / Kent . haha we used to walk to 7 oaks & the park & Safeway & Starbucks & we used to buy little Hannah Montana wigs and go to people's houses haha we always made stupid videos , ahha , like the time me & her went to 7 oaks & she said I couldn't fit in this springy thing that had handle bars so the kids didn't fall out , she all fit perfectly & got out hellluh easy , and I had the hardest time getting in , but I fit ! haha but it hurt like a B*TCH then I tried to get out , and you know what ? I got stuck -__- , I didn't know she was recording , hahah . but she was , I was all trying to get out , & then she tried to help me , and she was all pulling me , & it hurt EVEN MORE ! Then I found a way out , ahah but I fell back wards & the thing PANTSED ME ! hahah . she recorded it , that bitch . hahah . And then , there was another time where we took her balloons & took the helium out of them & started singing & dancing ? hahah we're retarded I swear ; and then also . we're serious Camera Whore's haha like we have A BAGILLION pictures from last year . She's such an adorable Asian , she's pretty & she won't admit it -___- I should slap her too . hahah I trust this girl , Love her to death (:

Let's Make a Huge come back !

Here's comes the millionth blog . I've been so busy & thinking to myself , wow , something's missing , I'm forgetting something . I've been so pissed off & crazy lately . And it's like before , it wasn't like that , I was organized & fine , I didn't have any weight on my chest or shoulders . I had good things on my mind instead of drama , but then I realized I haven't been blogging ! I miss blogging , before it kept my anger management under control , it kept me from doing things that I would regret & also things that would change & affect things severely & forever . So here I am showing my whole life's story out to the Internet world , describing each loop & whirl of this roller coaster in this limited time amusement park I call life . All I have left to say is .

Babbyy I'm Back !(: