Thanks Giving .

Thanks Giving was a couple days ago , every year that I have celebrated Thanks giving, it’s always been a happy ordeal. But I don’t know about this year. Lets start from the beginning , when I woke up right away my dad told me to clean , and we weren’t even having anyone over , we were going to some rich mansion in Tacoma for thanksgiving instead of Christmas because we always go to that house in Christmas . So yes, I went downstairs ate pie, was happy, and then, yadahyadah. Then my boyfriend called, & his family invited me to go with them for thanks giving. I was like so excited. I was really ready to go. And my mom was all, go ahead ! She wanted me to be happy . But then my dad was all , no. even if it was the whole family and we had no where else to go he wouldn’t let me . Just because, he was all,” NO. You’re going to OUR party.” It made me super mad. I wanted to kick him. It’s not even our party, and my mom got mad at him too. After a while he came back and he was all,” If you’re gunna go to that party, then don’t come back here.” After that , when he left to go somewhere , my mom broke down and she started confessing to me . She said that if that was to happen that I can’t come back home , how she might just have to leave my dad , they might have to separate . And I thought she was over reacting , until she told me all these other things . How they’re just constantly fighting , and how he’s always yelling . And so many things , I was just so worried about her . I tried to have like a mother daughter time with her , make her feel better . Then my dad came home & we had to act normal . Then about an hour later , we drove to Tacoma , and like the house was like in some rich part of Tacoma in this gated community with other big houses , the house had like a fountain in the middle of its driveway . And like 2 front doors. And like 5 Chandeliers I got lost in their freaking bathroom. Any who , my dad was annoying me to death I swear, I felt like I was gunna punch his face . He was all talking about my boyfriend too , he was all ,” Ohh I remember who Chris is now .That boy in 7th grade , he was that guy that you & Krista kept hugging .” and first of all , I really dislike my cousin Krista at the moment . But , first things first , I never hugged Chris 7th grade , & neither did Krista , that was Nick Versola , what ever , & I didn’t even hug him . So what the hell. And he’s just trying to find ways to hate Chris just because he called my house once at 2 in the morning. That’s really stupid. And then when we got there , this girl that’s like way younger than me , probably a 7th grader , I don’t know kept giving me this dirty look , and she was pretty too which made me envy her & hate her . And then this guy that was there like last year who was really cool with me , didn’t recognize me , And my mom had to embarrass me by saying,” Ohh you got his name right “, like right in front of him . And then after a while after we ate. I was just sitting there and I put my head down. And I started thinking about my mother , and about our conversation earlier , and also , how I should be with Chris , and how my dad doesn’t care . He’s all ordering me around like a slave. And I'm not enjoying anything , my brothers having the time of his life , and my dad can see I’m not enjoying anything . So I was all crying. My mom got really worried about me, and she knows why, so I asked if I could just go to the car & sleep. so my mom let me but I couldn’t so I just waited in the car staring at the fountain , then I had to go pee . & I just tolled my mom everything and she gave me something to do. She gave me this Pamela & made me open it . It looked like cotton candy on the inside and then I threw the parts I took off at my dad because he was drunk . And he was annoying me , and then my mom started throwing the shreds at my dad too . And then my uncle tried to make me feel better by talking about him feeding his dog something sour , and how his dog ran outside and started rubbing its face in the grass and its eyes kept blinking hard. Hahah. But yeah I hope next year its better …

A Confusing Yesterday .

A couple days ago there was an interesting day ... It was a half day because of conferences so I thought that it would be pretty freakinn cool . Nikki came over for a little bit afterschool , then out of the blue I get a call from my cousin Nikole, I haven't really been talking to her , and I felt bad casue we used to be super close , like she new everything about me , vise versa I mean she only lives 7 houses down from me , but highschool has been allowing me to drift from my friends . We’ve been sort of fading / drifting apart , I was like her big sis last year . But anyway , I answered it . And my other "friend" Elisa, answered , she said hey and all that . I'm drifting from her too , she texted me in the morning but I never got a chance to check it . They both asked if they could come over, Elisa said she was in Kent . So I told them sure , prolly just for a little bit , Nikki & I decided to play DDR - so Asian - and then they came over . So we just hung out at my door , but it was so awkward , I tried to like just be myself , and try to have a regular conversation with them , but they were just not in the mood , or at least cooperating . It kind of made me irritated. I even tried to get Nikki out there with me to lighten things up , but it wasn't working either , so instead , I just told them ," Hey , I gotta go to my conference , bye" and yeah . So I went to my conference , & such , & then I went to my brothers' conference , & I had fun , but then I discovered something that just made me cry for his whole conference . One of his teachers told my mom & me, that, a couple boys in his class were harassing him & throwing stuff at him. And this happens in almost every class. I just got so mad, & sad. My brother is like one of the nicest guys I can think of when he’s not distracted . He didn't even tell me this . That other people were doing this to him; it just made me so mad. He was nice enough to just let those kids do that to him, and not tell the teacher or me. Then after My brother’s conference, we went to my singing practice thing for my solo. And then after that we left home, & then when I came home my boyfriend called me, and we started talking about Kentridge Sadies Hawkins. Then I got a call from Elisa's Step dad , he said that Elisa didn’t come home , and that she was supposed to be home right after school , & that he was wondering if I knew where she was , and I told him that she was with Nikole after school . Then he said that she skipped school, because she had a full day of school today, at Renton. So I got worried, & her dad drove over to my house, I grabbed my north face, & me & her dad ran to Nikole's house. I was so worried, I was like tearing up. And then I found her in Nikole's room. Nikole & Elisa were looking at me like I was retarded or something, & I told Elisa that her dad, called me & I was worried and that he was waiting downstairs. And then they told me like the whole situation. How Elisa skipped school and came over here to tell us everything because we all have been fading and we never get the chance to talk nor listen. And how she went to the doctor, and they told her that she has a blood disorder, and how she has to take crap from her parents. And that tomorrow she's leaving for good, she's packing her bags tonight, and taking the train some where. And she went on about how much I don’t care & that it’s best if we kept it that way. And then, we were just all upstairs freaking balling our eyes out, & she went on about how her step dad was telling lies to my mom & Nikole's mom. And it looked like we were in some movie. After a while my mom left & told me to take the time I need. So Nikole’s mom came upstairs and talked to Elisa for a bit & me & Nikole went to Karl's room , (her brother) and we didn’t even look at each other or say a word , I even tried to start a conversation , but it just didn't work she didn't even talk or look at me . And so Elisa , Nikole and me all went to Nikole’s room to talk again , about the whole situation and everything , & we just went on confessing everything for like 4 hours or so . When I got back home it was 12:00 am, & I still had school. and my boyfriend Chris called me for the 50th time , and started yelling at me .. wth . Like forreal I already have had enough bullshit from that night and then he has to call me & yell at me and give me a whole bunch of unnecessary atitude . But then me & Nikole found out some things . And it made us helluh pissed . We found out so much things about her , like really ? She's been fake with us since the beginning . Like Nikole & I went through all of this bullshiet for nothing . UGH big waste of time .

Growing up already ?

Growing up .
Everyone Grows up . Its funny how kids want to grow up , and then adults wish to go back in time , & us adolescence , are's still undecided . Some of us want to be grown already , get away from the parents , & some wish they could relive every single moment , wish things never changed & they could stay young forever . But we all grow up , no matter what we do . But I realized there's just so much changes when growing up . Of course there's gonna be changes , but I never thought this fast . I mean , coming from a strict Asian family yes . My parents are those traditional kind of Asian family , not really Americanized & sticks to our culture , etc . My parents are just way too strict , like over the top . They wouldn't let me sleep over any ones house , wouldn't let me go over any ones house until they've met the person parents , pretty much no contact with boys besides casual talking in person while they are around . Wouldn't let me go out not even in the neighborhood without supervision , etc . Now its like different all of a sudden . Its like this switch to high school changed everything . Its only my 1st year , & wow . My moms totally open with me , we talk as if we're best friends , She lets me have a boyfriend , she lets me go out with friends & my boyfriend . She lets my boyfriend come over , we talk about so much things that I thought I could never , ever talk about to her . Its just weird . But my dad is different , he just became more strict . But I find all this very very interesting .(:

What the Heyall ?

Have you ever just had the worst days / weeks / months ever ? Well that's what it seems like I'm having . These past two weeks have just been the worst . My cellphone got stolen , my ID cards (all of them from my past schools), then My backpack , all got stolen . People I guess think that they're nice palm centro cellphone & a northface backpack . Yeah sure they are really nice , no wonder why people would steal it . But it's more than just a coincidence . In just 2 weeks all of these things got stolen .? This is personal , especially when my backpack got stolen . It was during PE . 6th period . 2 other girls got their lockers brocken into , but all the people did was look through they're shit & dumped all of it back in their lockers . They even looked through one of the girls phones , & they didn't steal it , the 2 girls are from tech too . But with my locker , They threw all my shit on the ground , stacked my books neatly & stole my backpack with everything not school related in it . What's wrong with that picture ?! Someones hatinn . And that's what everybodys saying . I guess the people think I'm rich or something , But c'mon , if they hate me , they could've settled this another way . Am I right ? Yes . People say their jealous ? But uhhhhhh , why would they be Jealous ? They have nothing to envy , NOTHING . But anyway . This is just way more than Coincidence . And I Just got to this fcckn school . They have managed to break me down . I've just been dealing with so much these past 2 weeks . This whole stealing thing , isn't just it ; There is wayyy more to it . Like how I got dragged into huge drama that I shouldn't be in that involves people getting hurt physically , & crap ... And how this whole thing is overwhelming my parents , & they are overover there limit , & worried sick for my safety threatening to send me back to some far away place or back to KL , the school that I'm having current drama with / and had drama with . And just alot of second thoughts about my relationship , & drama with his parents disliking me , prejudging me . And drama with the ex's . And People spreading rumors about me ? Especially in other schools . Ohh yes . The list goes on ..
I just wish People were just plain out nice .