Ehh ..

The Last day of school .
I thought it would be the best .. Or at least okay . Shitt , I was helluh wrong .
FML: 3 reasons .


1). I trust you . But you're at a party right now , and I went home cause I didn't feel good so I fell asleep . Everyone's been calling my cell off the hook , asking me to go chill & party & shit . Then I get a call from you / you're homeboy . I woke up confused & then I hear you on the phone , I thought you were laughing , then you're homeboy came on the phone , and told me you were drunk .. He assured me that you didn't do anything , you're just drunk , and you were crying , he wanted me to calm you down . You were too hysterical (in the bad sense) It sounded as if you were balling , I couldn't even understand what you were saying . All I heard was: "I'm so fucked up , I'm sorry , I'm sorry , I'm so fucking messed up , I'm so fucked up ." and then I could hear people yelling your name , telling you to go over there , to calm down .. It was chaos , then the phone hung up . That call broke me . My gut , Like in my letter to you today , could be right .. I was supposed to calm you down , & I couldn't even do that . I don't know what to think , but that phone call made it sound like you were in pain . It made me break . I've been praying for you ever since I got that call , right now I am on my 183rd Our father ; and my 182nd Hail Mary . I have been praying non stop ever since the call . I don't know what to do . I don't know what to think , I won't be okay until we talk tonight . Dear God . Help me .

2). Stupid Drama started yesterday ! WTF . I hate it when people don't come up to your face & tell you straight up whatsgood . And hate it when a certain someone was around when you & your homegirl were talking about a whole other thing that was never about that certain some , makes it a big deal & about them . And makes up shit to go along with it too . And then when you're bouts to confront them , they runaway & they don't even try to come up to your face & tell you straight up . Also , how before they get their story straight , they go off & tell other people shit , and they start to hate you or think different of you , when you didn't even do no shit . This is the end of the year , honestly is this how you want to finish it off ? What kind of name are you making for yourself huh ? What are you trying to prove ? Honestly , I really don't like you , but I respect you , but you know what ? You're actions are making my respect for you really thin .

3). WTF ; You know what ? I thought that everything was all good except for the whole other drama (1) I thought that was the most of all my worries . I was wrong . People are telling me I shouldn't care . I really shouldn't because I got the person I really do love . But FUCK mann . Wouldn't you be pissed if you found out JUST NOW , that the person that you trusted , the person that you had special moments & shit with , the person that you were there for , the person that you truly loved no matter what , and stood up for no matter what: pretty much fuckin cheated on me when we were together . 2 DAYS before we broke up .. WTF . I fucking cared about you , even throughout the times you treated me like shit , I was there , supporting you . In your time of need I was there , When people looked down on you , I stood up for you . When I was over the top pissed at you , I calmed myself down & put a smile on . You fucking lied to me . You told me you loved me , LIE . You told me that you've only cheated on a girl once and you would never do it again , especially with me . You told me things that you've never told anyone , I've told you things that I've never told anyone . You fuckin trick . What the Hell is your problem ?! Don't you know how to fuckin treat a girl ? HUH ? Girl's aren't some pieces of meet that you can throw away & recycle . We're human beings with fuckin feelings , I don't even think you're human . You're fucking HEARTLESS funny thing , you won't see this . You're such a pussy too , you run away from your problems . You act helluh hard & shit too . You fucking treat me like a hoe . No wonder why helluh people think I am one . When I'M NOT . Fuck you . Go fuck yourself . You've been there for me throughout all my relationships , you've seen first hand how much pain I went through , how when I was played / cheated on / screwed over , I was hurt , and you promised you would never do that . I thought I could trust you , I thought that you were a good person . Well now all your fucked up insides are exposed . And I can assure you , no one that knows you , and no one here , will want any of that . You're actions show what you really deserve .. Karma's a bitch . I hope you have fun with your w/e life , without your best friend , without your former lover .