When you really care for someone , you do all you can to protect them . You do all you can to make sure they're safe , forever & always . But reality is , you can't . You can't always be there to pick up someone when ever they fall . You're only there to brush them off & ask if they're okay , you can't really do anything about it . It fucking sucks .. it really does . Today , 3 people I care about greatly told me some bullshitt . Honestly , I thought today was gunna be cool , until I found this shitt out . One of them just broke a like month or so of soberness , but I trust her , that she won't take it far , so I'm not as mad about that . But I'm not gunna say what one of the other two did because HE reads my blog .. Now for the second guy , I guess he could care less about me , so he would have no way of reading this blog of mine . Fuccking telling me "not to tell anyone" and that "it's good" WTF MANN UGHH ; Just found out he fuccking smokes . Doesn't he know HOW MUCH I CARE FOR HIM ?! He's prolly to fuccking high to even know what he's talking about or telling me . He doesn't know how much this hurts the people around him & ME . If he's fuccking joking about this , then that's just greez , he of all people should know the reason for that . Ever since he started chillen with them certain people he's changed so much , fucciking got cockier or something , he changed for the worst , he's still a freshmen , mann , yet he's tryna act like them people , GAHHD I miss the old him , the real him , I don't even know anymore . And then the other guy I was talking about ! UGHH ; wthell man . I thought he quit shitt , I guess not . And all this other shitt that he's doing is fuccking pissing me off . We never ever fought like this , lately we've been fighting like fuccking Many Pacquiao & Oscar de la Hoya . We've been getting on each other's case lately , I forgave him for last time's shitt , so today we were cool again , and then we started fighting & getting each other helluh pissed off again , we never used to fight .. wtfs happened .. If they read this , they would've prolly been like I'm over reacting too much or some BS ; but honestly , I've lost family & friends , because of all the stupid shitt that they do . I lost the people I cared so much about & looked up to & loved , because of that shitt , And the only reason why I'm fuccking crying over this bullshitt , is cause I care so much about them . I don't want them to get hurt , I don't want them to be sad , mad , angry , depressed w/e . I want them to be safe & happy . And if they don't care about me at all the same way I care about them , then w/e , I'll be fine as long as I know they're safe .
UGHHH
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