A new love is born

(Song of the Hour: I'm Tryna by Omarion)

First off ; SCREW MY LAST POST ! I mean it's cute & all but screw it and leave it . You know ... I don't know what to feel actually ; I should be SOOPER happy , I should be mad , I should be sad , I should be - well basically I have a right to feel what ever right now . Let's get straight to the point , I hate love/like triangles I HATE them , UGHH ; Okay , in my last post I was talking about this guy ; let's call him YANYAN (I thought you all might be tired of all the numbers). Now me and YanYan have some history , shoot , we have so much history it should be a history textbook . I loved him for so long you have no idea , I waited for him for so long , I went through many heart breaks with him ; He’s witnessed me go through many heartbreaks & F’d up relationships . For some reason he’s always been the one to make me smile , and I don’t want to lose that . The thing is , is that we always are on this cycle , I hate it . And I’m tired of it . Lately , it seems like we are drifting back to the fade step of the cycle . I don’t even know why . I’m losing feelings for him , I mean yeahh I still love him , cause if you truly do love someone , you never stop loving them . Now the other point in this geometric love problem , let’s call this guy supergentleman [(:] Like , honestly I don't know if I should be feelingg this guy or not . I am utterly confoozled . I met him a while back , and back then had a bad prejudgment about him , because of what I heard , from a so called “friend” then . We just recently started to get to know each other . We had deep conversation’s already d: . It’s really early , for me to fall for him , because , I like to take things slow . It usually takes me like at least a month to get to know them really well ; then usually a little bit more after that , I fall for them , or realize that I don't like them in that way . But with "supergentleman" (hahah still can't get over that) I'm falling fast ; I haven't fallen this fast for any guy , and I keep telling myself how stupid I am for not thinking . I'm diving into an endless ocean without giving a damn , and then I find out it's an empty abyss , and all there is left to do since swimming isn't an option , is fall . He's such a sweet guy , he cares so much about me , He's helluh real with me , he's not fake , he just makes me feel like I really do matter to someone , I don't know , sometimes I think he's too good to be true . He's falling fast for me too ! Ughh , sometimes I hate myself because honestly this always happens , I'm just trying to be friends with someone , & then they end up falling head over heals for me -__- , it sucks most of the time , cause I don't ever wanna hurt them , you know ? I don't wanna lead them on either , I hate that , I even do that sometimes without knowing . But mann , I swearr ; This Triangle keeps getting constantly deformed , earlier it was an equilateral , Now its just totally deformed and confused , all because feelings keep shifting .
Oh Gott ; Help Me !!!


FML !